I regret the Roe vs. Wade decision with everything that is in me. It bought into the lie that abortion was a woman’s choice, and that it was an easy solution to a “problem”. My devastating choice to abort has changed my life forever. I not only killed my children, but my grandchildren. I was foolish, and in my 20′s and did not realize the long term effects. I convinced myself that I had to finish school, and that a baby would interfere with my life and embarrass me because I was not married. Another time I was working in my career, and again I convinced myself that a baby would embarrass me because I was not married. I have lost my career, and I am unable to work. People ask me if I have children, and I’m embarrassed to say no. They have kids and grandchildren, and they show me their pictures. I have no husband either. Now many feel sorry for me.
The shedding of innocent blood brings a curse. I thought that I would get married and then have kids, but it never happened…
But if you aren’t able to work, isn’t it best that you didn’t have a child, so that it wouldn’t starve? I think you are conflating the effects of having an abortion with other unfortunate aspects of your life. You can continue to pursue jobs or men that you are interested in. You don’t have to be ashamed about your life. You can move on and do solid things that you are proud of. You can adopt. There are a whole bunch of ways you can move on.